Some time back, when I was going through a healing period, I read through the same inspirational posts. Some made me reflect on mistakes I had made & not want to repeat should another relationship ever come my way. Others were reminders of how to simply cope one day at a time. In my heart, there is no other hurt like heartache. And whatever causes one's heart to ache is individual. Right now, mine is love gone wrong & lost.
To willingly give all of yourself to another is not easy. Not for me, anyway. But to not be held, or thought of, as something precious or special, deeply saddens me. It's the simplest way I can put it. I made the mistake of not doing that once & from there learned to cherish what I truly loved. Who I truly loved, I should say. I'm not sure what lessons I've learned from this just yet. I mean, there are concrete lessons I have learned, but those were learned on the first go around. Now, I'm just trying to get through each day, reflect, not obsess, and move forward. This too shall pass. I have to be kinder to myself & know that God is in control. There's nothing more I can do. Well, I can keep doing what I'm doing. Surrounding myself with friends, staying active & going, going, going, till I'm simply exhausted. That's probably not the best answer, but it's working right now.
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Jessica,
I am so sorry you're experience heartache. I know exactly what you're going through. I was married to a man who did not love me. I was in a marriage alone only to learn that he was having an affair. It completely broke me. It destroyed me in unimaginable ways, but in that season I began walking into a deep relationship with God. God showed me what true unconditional love is because I found it in Him. He healed my heart and restored me. He made me whole and showed me my worth.
I hope you know that God did not intend for your heart to be broken in the ways it has been. Unfortunately we live in a fallen world. However, God promises that if we love Him He will work all things for our good. I can stand as a witness and say how true that is! Even though I experienced one of my greatest heartaches God has done and continues to do some beautiful things in and through me. The healing process, while it wasn't fun, was so fruitful.
If I could offer words of encouragement first I would say that Jessica, you're a beautiful and amazing woman. You have such a sweet spirit and heart. I've learned that simply from following your blog. Even though your heart has been broken and people have failed you it is not a reflection of who you are. Take what you need to learn (just as you said) and become wiser, stronger and even more beautiful.
The second, would be to forgive. When people fail us it's easy to harbor hidden bitterness and resentment. I'm not suggesting you are, but as you heal pray that God would help you to forgive every single person who has hurt you. Forgiveness is freeing and critical to your healing.
Next, trust God. God never authored heart break for you life. Even though you had to experience it, trust God to use it for your good. In the book of Isaiah the Lord promises that He will give us beauty for our ashes. He will do (is doing) that for you. Trust Him to completely heal your heart. Trust that He has good things in store for you. Trust the time is allotted for your healing and enjoy the process and season you're in. It's going to be so fruitful and necessary for the next phase of your journey.
Last, never give up on love. I know it's difficult to believe it now, but God will give you the desires of your heart. He will place a man in your life who loves you the way Christ loves His church. In God's perfect timing, when you're fully healed and restored God will align your path with a man who He knows will cherish your beautiful heart. Love happens everyday and it will happen for you because love never fails.
I will be thinking of you and praying for you during your healing season.
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