That was the title of last night's presentation @ church. We have to let go of our old selves & just give our lives to The Lord & let Him make us new again.
I can honestly say I've tried things my way over & over again, only to have failed miserably and become hurt.
Insanity :: I feel as though I wrote about this in a prior post some time ago :: is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
That is true of anything. This was mentioned last night, and instead of thinking of my life, I thought of my relationship. We wanted different, new, happier results, however, the important things had not changed. And I knew this in my heart & it hurt because I saw it crumbling again before my eyes. But, no one can do anything alone. No one can force change. We can only do our parts. So, it is what it is. Over. And I'm just praying every day for understanding & for healing. And for a new beginning. Not even with another person, because I'm not sure I want to be close to anyone again. It's very hurtful to watch your hopes and dreams shatter right before your eyes. My new beginnings are daily. I have to wake up & ask God to give me strength to get through the day. I want to stop leaning on my own understanding, because I have none, and ask God to strengthen me. And show me what is to come. Out with the old me, in with the new. Not 100% sure what that means right now ... But I know I need God. Today more than ever.
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