Just recently, I experienced two nights that each felt all too familiar ... I had two conversations, with two different individuals, that brought me back in time to places in my past.
These places were ones I didn't want to revisit because they each tugged at my heart in different ways: one -- heart ache, the other an old love. Neither was a conversation I wanted to be having while I was having it. Still, they were each entertained and entertaining. And I walked away with something from both.
Love ...
It's not always easy, but the expression, 'It's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all,' is proving to be more true than it is cliche.
I've loved many, but only a few, truly and deeply, in-love, with my entire heart. When I love, I love hard. Will I ever have that again? Only God knows. I do hope so, but minus all the unnecessary drama. I'm looking, waiting, hoping and praying for the happiness, love, excitement, honesty and genuine fun that I do believe exists.
Until then, I can only reflect on what I've experienced, learn from my mistakes, and try to be the 'best Jess' (as my friend, Ellie says) I can be. One day, I will meet the right person who will reap the benefits of all that I've learned along the way. Hopefully, there'll be no more heartache & no more regret; no more loves lost, but there do need to be lessons learned.
Every day, every experience equals a new lesson learned; new growth as a person, as a couple. What I do with those lessons, those experiences, those conversations is what matters the most.
Until then ... I continue praying, being me, enjoying life and growing.
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